Yesterday

Sigh!
Life can be so tragic at times. One day you're happy minding your own business, the next day you can be down and feeling sorry for yourself. Sucks doesn't it? When you least expect how things can go wrong sometimes and how you wish at that very moment, you can just fall down and hide your head in the ground like an ostrich.

Yesterday...
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it seems as though they're here to stay
Oh I believe in yesterday

Suddenly, I'm not half the girl I use to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Oh yesterday came suddenly
Why he had to go, I don't know
I said something wrong now I long for yesterday

Yesterday...
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh I believe in yesterday
And I know I can't turn back
Cause yesterday's gone
~ Beatles

Kebelakangan nie, kesabaran aku memang teruji sangat. Banyak yang aku terpaksa bertahan sebab aku terikat atas nama keluarga dan kasih sayang. Takut tersinggung perasaan orang yang aku sayangi. Tapi sedih sekali bila orang tak pernah terpikir pasal perasaan aku... keinginan aku. Tak pernah orang terpikir that I need my space too. How sad when these people I trust and love seem to forget that I and a human being too and I deserve the freedom and rights just like everyone else. People find it difficult to understand and accept it that I'm not that 12 or 17 years old girl anymore. I have my commitment towards myself, commitment to my career, to my LIFE.
Sebab tue kekadang aku rasa macam nak jerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrriiiittttttttttttt sepuas puas hati aku.
Lama dah aku tak meluangkan masa untuk diri sendiri sebab asyik pikirkan orang lain. And memang tak pernah satu hari pun aku mengeluh atau bermasam muka when I'm there for them. Sampai kekadang sakit hati bila orang tue tak menghargai segala apa yang aku lakukan untuk mereka. Sampai hati kata yang aku nie tak bersensitive, I was never there for them konon. Like I said, aku nie diuji. Sejauh mana aku mampu bertahan. Tak pe, aku anggap saja nie dugaan Allah SWT untuk menguatkan aku lagi. Bersabar je la.