Good Bye My Lover

Artist : James Blunt
Title : Good Bye my Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

2xGoodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

2x Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

2x Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.


One of my favourite songs. I was listening to it the whole day yesterday. Got nowhere to go.. got nothing to do. I was just sitting around and doing nothing. And the worst part of all.. It was raining. Tapi, hujan semalam amat berbeza. Buat aku rasa sayu jer. Like suddenly the whold world turned sad, dark and gloomy. As if life was not standing on it's own. Selalunyer memang aku suka bila hujan. Rasa sejuk and cozy.. syok jer. But yesterday I sensed something different about it. Hurm.. Or clearly this is another sign that I'm loosing my mind :p I told my sister about the rain and the sadness it brings, she just gave me this "you're weird! Surely you need to go out more often.. " look. hehe! Maybe aku nie terlalu menyelam perasaan aku yang tak tenteram nie. SO, the best solution is to divert my mind to something else.

Perasaan yang tak tenteram...
I keep telling myself that I'm over him. But I think I was wrong. Especially bila aku dapat kad jemputan perkahwinan dia. Something I should have expected. Lebih2 lagi bila kami masing2 mengambil keputusan untuk meneruskan hidup and to go our seperate ways. Things hardly work out the way you want them to be. I'm happy for him that he has finally took the next step in life. But at the same time, aku sedih... Does this mean he'll forget me slowly? I'm sure as time pass by... he will gradually forget that I once existed in his life. Well, it will be good for him.. and for me. Tapi.. satu lagi soalan yang aku tertanya-tanya... kenapa dia kirimkan kad jemputan perkahwinan dia kat aku?? Well... biar apa pun alasan dia, aku tak nak pikir panjang2. What's past is past. No matter how hard I think about it.. nothing is going to bring back time. I'm happy with how I have turned up to be. I'm doing well, I'm healthly.. abit chubby la.. but healthy. Tue yang penting :p Yang paling penting.. Allah is with me and that's all that matters.