Gotta keep on going

Great!! It’s already the month of April. I have another 7 months to go to my birthday.(0_o)

A lot if things have happened these past few days. Nothing sweet or sincere. There’s a lot of bitter heart and grudges going on actually. I feel like my work is beginning to show the other side of it... the other bitter side of it. Work has always been pleasurable even though sometimes you really feel like you’re been choked, but it was always a pleasure. But lately, I really have no mood to work. Could it be because I am looking forward for the job change? Or could it be because the lack of motivation to work here. I mean, what's the point beb?? You are not appreciated and the worse thing is, you feel like you are being stepped on even harder. Everytime you just do something you think is right, there's always a fullstop. You think you are performing well and the next thing you know, you are being evaluated and being so called 'reviewed'. That's what I got last week Friday. Apparently my boss dunno who she could pick on so she choose me! Blardy hell... Who she think she is.. What's that term she used!! oh yah!! "Set expectation alignment with Cost down Methodology" in short what my boss is trying to tell me is that "there's no increment this year" Blardy arsh. Just imagine, you worked your ass off last year for a good year of success. We managed to achieve our sales no. by 106%. That’s an increase of another 6% out of the total no. and last year was the highest no we have ever achieved in Penang sales history. But for what?? We work so hard hoping for a better reward, instead we got CRAP! Yup.. stinky gooey sickening CRAP!! Sigh! Well, I dunno... but what ever it is, I need to pick up the pace and start working.. work... work... work.. WORK GRRRrrr...

I like this song from Miley Cyrus. I’ll always remember those last words in the song.
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith....

Right now, I just have to push myself. I know I might be miles and miles away from what I truly desire in life but I just need to push myself to reach there. I know working here can be a pain sometimes, but I just have to do it. With my current financial status, I really cannot afford to lack. Ya Allah... please help me and show me the right path. Please show me some light.


The Climb By Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb...

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!