Kau ku Seru...

I just love this song.. one of the few malay songs I listen to.

Misha Omar - Ku Seru

Ku membayangi jiwa hatimu
Tapi perpisahan menunggu
Ku ingin membelaimu
Namun kasihku tiada restu

Diri begini kerna selama
Ditinggalkan marah sengsara
Hingga hilang terlupa
Siapa aku sebenarnya....Sayang

Oh dengarlah sayu tangisanku
Mengapa degupanmu ku seru
Kerna kesepian nan terlalu
Kembalikan hidup yang ku rindu

Oh dengarlah sunyi tangisanku
Kau tahu ku amat menyayangimu
Oh pergilah kau bukan milikku
Pulang pada yang mengasihi dirimu

Ohh..
kesepian berlalu ohoh..
Maafkan Daku

Sampai disini
Ku lepas kau pergi
Biar ku damai bersemadi
Luka mu ku mengerti
Kan ku hilangkan derita ini...

Tuesday Blues..

Bored.. The one and simple word I can describe my mood today.. Though I was tied up with a lot of work today, but I dunno.. there was still this empty space in me. Life can be so unfair. Look at me, i'm 2* years old, still single while all my friends are getting married, having babies :p and enjoying life (I think). While I'm still here in my empty cubicle after work (alone as usual), listening to Daniel Beddingfield - If you're not the one.. feeling sorry for myself and waiting for a miracle to happen. Hrm! like that's for sure. Right! hey.. I don't wanna sound desperate. I'm doing fine being alone, minding my own thing, enjoying life with a *bling.. just like how Tara Banks said it.. "Go gurl.. get choself a *Bling".
It's not my time yet ( I suppose). Life is short.. enjoy what you can and pray to the Almighty. Something that I have to start doing ASAP.
Hurm.. called Uncle Guna today. Hehehe miss that fella alot la, miss the good old days when we used to work together at Intel. He's a great guy. Though sometimes he'll have this mood swings.. he won't talk much, he'll keep to himself. Hehe sorta like a tough shell to crack open, a person who's difficult to earn his trust. But I consider myself lucky to have a friend like him. A guy who knows how to respect women. Even my mum likes him. Gila-gila also at times. He's the only guy who earns my trust. I can trust him completely and someone I would call a true friend. However, Guna is kinda lazy at times. Just imagine, he owns 2 diploma, and I just came to know that he's working in a store with a monthly income of only 800 ringgit. Gila. Tak suka nak berusaha sikit. Tu la yang susah pasal uncle Guna nie. Now that he's married, he's carrying more responsibilities but i'm not sure he understands that and I just don't know how I can make him understand. Nak cakap dengan dia, takut tersinggung pulak. Susah betul nak pujuk dia nanti. Still, I'm taking effort to find for him a job. Just recommended him to this good place to work. Right here in Penang. Just told him to email his resume asap. I hope he'll put some effort into it. This is his future we're talking about and I'm worried sick for him. Now that i know he's earning so little for what he have studied for, I'm more worried for him pulak. And I’m kinda upset cos I feel like he has no interest in applying for this job. Well, maybe he’s not that worried as he’s kinda from a well off family. He’s father own a big business and he’s the eldest among 5 sons in the family. I’m sure he won’t be this relaxed if he was from a diffeent family background. What ever it is, it’s up to his hands now. A good guy like him deserves a good and secured future. Nice guys like him are very hard to find these days.

For me to remember you..

Just would like to share.. this song will always remind me of him.

Artist : Daniel bedingfield
Song : If You're Not The One

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Mak dah balik

Yup! Mak balik dalam kul 10.30 malam hari sabtu. Ceh! beli balik banyak barang jugak nih. Ikan bilis, satay fish, sotong kering, Roti kering teluk intan.. (Favourite tok dulu nuh!) pas tue beli pulak sayur-sayuran kat Cameron. Hrm.. lama benar tak ge cameron. Teringin nak pe pulak.

Semalam biar mak rest.. tapi kesian lar, macam mana nak rest bila wapa pulak tetiba balik bawak budak Pezal tue. Duduk pulak bukan main punya lama kat ruang tamu. Budak Pezal tue pulak, kalu tak tengok kartun, tak leh tidur kot. hehehe.. patut lar dia pun serupa kartun jugak. Tapi Alhamdullilah, mak kata dia jaga budak-budak nie elok-elok. Hrm.. entah lar, kesian jugak budak kecik. Sebaya umur Farah dengan Min. Kira macam anak saudara aku jugak. Tapi bila tengok cara wapa layan dia, lebih dari layan cucu sendiri, meluat aku! nak aku salahkan dia?? tak langsung.. tapi kekadang tue, disebabkan pasal bapa dengan mak dia, aku geram kat dia. He took away what belongs to me. And I'll never forget that as long as I live. Kesian jugak kekadang tengok dia, memang tak de haluan arah tuju. Ikut jer wapa kemana pun.

Anyway, semalam okie lar jugak mak rest. Tapi kesian, tak senang tidur bila tengok wapa ada kat rumah. Aku buat sayur campur goreng aku yang famous tue hehehe. Mak makan saje semangkuk.